Aysel and Roman are practically strangers, but they’ve been drawn into an unthinkable partnership. In a month’s time, they plan to commit suicide – together.
Aysel knows why she wants to die: being the daughter of a murderer doesn’t equal normal, well-adjusted teenager. But she can’t figure out why handsome, popular Roman wants to end it all….and why he’s even more determined than she is.
With the deadline getting closer, something starts to grow between Aysel and Roman – a feeling she never thought she would experience. It seems there might be something to live for, after all – but is Aysel in so deep she can’t turn back?
Published February 2015 by Hodder and Stoughton
Depression and mental health in general is something we don’t take seriously enough in our teenagers. It’s easy to brush it off as teen moodiness and sulkiness. In ‘My Heart and Other Black Holes’ Jasmine Warga takes the topic of depression and suicidal thoughts and manages to convey the crippling sadness of main protagonist Aysel very well. As someone who did have a difficult adolescense, I related to those feelings of despair and the metaphor of ‘a black slug’ for Aysel’s depression really struck a chord.
But this books also investigates a darker, more modern topic relevant to teenagers today. The internet, specifically Suicide websites. I’ll be honest, as a parent this scared me. Aysel meets Roman on a site for people looking for suicide partners, and as they set ‘the date’ the slowly begin to get to know each other. I could feel the pressure Aysel started to feel under from Roman and it chilled me. I didn’t like him all that much and didn’t relate to him the way I did Aysel.
However, the developement of the relationship between the two was sweet and tender. There’s a part of me that sighs at the ‘love solves all problems’ message that could so easily have dominated this story. Thankfully, Aysel’s new found hope in life isn’t confined to her growing fondness for Roman and I hope this isn’t lost on a younger audience.
There is a lot of good in this book. It’s written very, very well and I think anyone who has suffered depression, teens and adults alike, will relate to Aysel and her feelings. The first half of the book was excellent, but then I felt the second half was rushed and it lost me a little. The parent in me says I’d recommend this book to other parents of teenagers happily, as an excellent insight into depression in teenagers. As for it’s target market, I think it would be ideal for mature young adults. I would look out for more from the author in the future, who really does have a beautiful way with words.
Published February 2015 by Hodder (UK)
My copy was an advance reader from the Amazon Vine program